“Awkward moments define me. I’d sleep all day if I could. I lack the capability to keep my mouth shut. Yeah, everyone has bad days, but I seem to have more than my fair share. If you don’t like me, don’t act like you do. I swear, it offends me less. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve let people take advantage of me and I’ve accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back, and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.”
—(via reinventthesea) (via notsharon)
November 2008
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“All day I think about it, then at night I say it. Where did I come from, and what am I supposed to be doing? I have no idea. My soul is from elsewhere, I’m sure of that, and I intend to end up there.”
—Rumi
“The grand essentials
to happiness
in this life are
something to do,
something to love,
and something to hope for.
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—Joseph Addison (via kari-shma)
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The Fratellis - Whistle For the Choir
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David Bowie - Golden Years
“I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs. And the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love, and I’ll return to a person I love. So, that’s the dream I’m working on.”
—Amber Morley (via robot-heart) (via thoughtsdetained) (via notsharon)
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Blondie - Dreaming
“Every man, when he gets quiet, when he becomes desperately honest with himself, is capable of uttering profound truths. We all derive from the same source. There is no mystery about the origin of things. We are all part of creation, all kings, all poets, all musicians; we have only to open up, to discover what is already there.”
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i found an old book today called “Nursing in the Home’” book from 1928, 12th edition, written by some doctor in Buffalo. it has turned out to be 500 pages of the oddest, nonsensical things i have read in some time. its interesting though.
according to the book: indigestion and other digestion problems ‘..cause the following derangements…”: acne, pimples, bad breath, asthma, anaemia, cold hand/feet, nervousness, headaches, mental depression, insomnia, nightmares, and about 15 other illnesses.
there is a whole chapter on treatments using electricity as therapy, like running ‘High Frequency Oscillating Currents’ through people for things like indigestion, dizziness, and eliminating asthma (so it says). the pictures of the machines look like something out of “House on Haunted Hill”.
it talks about alcoholism, more morally than medically - ….”To search for force in alcohol is, to my mind, equivalent to the act of seeking for the sun in subterranean gloom until all is night.” wtf kind of home care medical book reads like that?
the whole book is just a trip to read. its just amazing how far medicine and health care has come since then.
today was a sunshines, rainbows, and jujubes kinda day.
nothing special, but nothing catastrophic either, for a change.
i was feeling the karma.
and that makes it a good day for me.
i even have a day off tomorrow.
i have not had a day off in so long, i’m not quite sure what to do with myself. there is plenty to do, i’m just so A.D.D. and unsure where to start where to start.
“Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong, and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain.”
—Henry Rollins
it hard when things that once mattered so much to you, things you could not have lived with out, things that defined who you thought you were for so long…hold so very little meaning or interest to you anymore.
what then?
im completely starting from scratch, at 25.most seem to be picking up and moving forward, im just stuck in neutral, with next to nothing to show for it and not a clue what the hell to do.
ugh.
cant i just sleep through it all?
oh wait…insomnia.
double ugh.
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Elvis Costello and Lucinda Williams - Wild Horses (Stones cover)
always had an affinity for this song
Marvel 1602, by Neil Gaiman
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I want this book soooo bad.
And yes, I am aware my inner nerd is showing.
I dont care.
hmmmmm
hot tea and white powdered donuts = a yummmy breakfast
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Death Cab for Cutie - Title and Registration
It literally took me years to love and appreciate this band.
And this song did it for me.
They are putting Chewie (my cat) on Prozac.
The vet says he is having anxiety issues and is possible depressed.
Thats the reason he has been misbehaving and acting odd.
I wish I was making this up.
Figures it would be my cat.
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Tracy Bonham - All Thumbs
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“A man’s work is nothing but this slow trek to rediscover, through the detours of art, those two or three great and simple images in whose presence his heart first opened.”
“An intellectual is someone whose mind watches itself.”
“But what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? “
“Every act of rebellion expresses a nostalgia for innocence and an appeal to the essence of being.”
“To be happy we must not be too concerned with others.”
Albert Camus
” —i wish the rain would
i wish the rain would juststop already. im all for nice rainy days when im at home, curled up in bed with a Fred and Ginger movie, but four days of it? its just depressing.
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Bing Crosby - Dear Hearts and Gentle People
I adore Bing.
He reminds me so much of my Pops (granddad).
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